Thursday, March 8, 2007 @11:36 AM
heys managed to squeeze in some time (: yeah nowadays i really feel being drawn really close to God. okay honestly to all christians out dere, do u do quiet time EVERY SINGLE DAY? i guess it's a no. WELL i was like that, oops :( but now, i'm like...so different!It all started with me going to Cedar, meeting my first tough obstacle. Monitress thingy. tanks to yanyi and deb for being dere (: nice words frm sharron too. hmm...yeah very downhearted okay! yepps i relied on God more then usual le. Okay this time, i'm frustrated again. There's this girl that entered a new school and made plenty of friends. She said she stuck very close to a grp of frends. That grp was very 'sticky', she says. and was really happy to be part of this little family. This girl had a very big problem in January and overcame it soon by some help. She seeked emotional support frm that grp but none was given. that was no so bad, she says. The problem now is getting huge. Her grp of 'friends' rejected her one by one, even the one closest to her. She totally dont know the reason for their behaviour. This girl was really shocked and upset. She treated these ppl as BEST friends and now they were leaving her alone. another girl was her replacement in the group. In school for one week, she tried all sorts to gain back the friendship. however, they were totally useless. Finally, she decided to leave this group and find a true friend on her own. I agree that this girl cant go on begging them to be friends, and cannot do everything for them to gain back what she has lost. they'll take advantage on her. This girl is sociable thankfully and made clicks with a girl in the class. Both r christians and that friend is a convert (wasnt a christain b4) . so they have lots to share. YAY. but the painfull thing is that for many lessons, the grps were unchangeable. This girl had to work with that bunch of friends again. They treated her like a dump of shit and left her out in almost everything unless they need her help. taking advantage here... this girl badly want to switch working group but she dare not ask teacher abt it. till now, she's still at loss. Okay u may ask how come i noe so well abt this girl. that's because i've bin writing about myself. Yes, because of my converted friend, Hui Sian, i'm always talking about God and His Works. Not because of that solely. also, the week before i found Hui Sian, i cried in the pillows and kept them to myself. I felt so burdened. I remembered God. God is with me Everywhere ,everytime. I knelt on my bed facing the window and looked up into the sky. i prayed that God help me with this trouble. also, i told Him i was thankful that He put these obstacles in my life to draw me closer to Him. Jesus, i Love you. Till now, though i'm still struggling with those friends, i know God is with me always and He'll help me. ALSO, i acknowledge that God has a plan for me that i may not know. Just like Joseph in the Bible, went through many troubles. But God was acctually training him to do greater things. Yes, Life IS challenging. BUT God is always there. No matter what and how big the obstacles are, turn back to him and do not sin because of your anger. Let God be the Judge. Let Him be the one who makes your way. Thank God.That was a small sharing (: lets tok about sth more lively here! hmm yeah i've cried more than 2 times abt issues in Cedar! Yanyi said that she too, cried alot during the 'cedar period' and "it's the memories that makes me love Cedar". Yes, i'm slowly agreeing to it. My life is a living example (: YAY.Oh yeah lets tok abt SCH now. i got hist, lit, EL,science and maths test on e first wk of term 2! WHAT!!! oh gosh sec sch's hols are studying periods okay! n yes! there's Choir Camp nxt Wed and Thurs. HAHA i promised yanyi to sms her gd morning and gd nite. today my class did the PSGM skit. HAHA i was so nervous that i sang out of tune! arhh so sad PSGM is over. i will miss it :(. HEY aft the kit, sharron was standing dere. i said it was horrible. she just stared at me... so i guess it was?? arrgh... hehs but later she told me its okay. HEY despite me singing out of tune, Si Min, one of may fav choir seniors came over and said i sang well. thanks si min!oh yeah today's sharron's bday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARRON!!OKOK i gtg! cya soon!loves, ME
